Hello =____=

I’m back with my not normal story. Yeah, I cant keep my promise to being a normal girl. Like the others girls do with their boyfriend. I’m still stuck with my fangirling world, always dreaming and dreaming sometimes my FAKE husband will marry me. Yeah, thats too much. I’m tired with this things too. I want to live like the other girls do. Have a boyfriend, hangout with my bestfriend etc. But, I can’t ;__________; I know kpop-fandom-world is unhealthy, they are like brainwash. When you listen to the music at once, you can’t stop to listen anymore. Like a drugs.

Do u know what? I want to have a normal life like my friend, have a boyfriend, have a vacation with their friends. I WAN TO FEEL THAT ;______; But this KPOP WORLD make me can’t do that. I’m so fucking jealous with my classmate who have a boyfriend already ==” FYI, I’ve never had a boyfriend before. Once, but only in CYBERWORLD ;~; What’s the difference with my FAKE husband? How pathetic I am.

Ok, I need someone who can get me out from this fangirl-world. Yes, boyfriend. I need a boyfriend right now, forget this ‘pain’ and have a normal life as a ‘normal’ teenager.

I WANT TO QUIT THE FANDOM, BUT HOW CAN? ;~~~~~~~~~~~~; I have something to take care, protect and believe. TVXQ/DBSK/Tohoshinki or whatever they called. Seriously I can’t leave like this. And from now I’ve made a decision. IF THEY DISBAND, KPOP BASSICALLY OVER FOR ME. What a simple decision rite? =)) Call me desperate. I’m tired of this pain. I swear I will never touch KPOP-WORLD again if TVXQ does not exist anymore. I HOPE I CAN DO THAT AND LEAVE THIS ‘unhealthy’ world ;~~~~~~~~;

That’s all.

Sorry for my bad grammar ==” I’m trying so hard to make this entry.

Cheers!

Labels: Curhat, Life, Love?